Lifelight/The Tapestry

Lifelight was supposed to be a tool for good. we would go in and save lives and societies, maintain peace in the multiverse. Our director was Ramona. One event, we went into a river/forest society to fight big bat creatures. I was flying over a great lake and landed in a pine tree, chasing off the draghkar, when I looked behind me to see a great war machine, eating up the forest and its people. The shock woke me from lifelight and I woke to find Ramona at the controls, running the machine that was destroying the forest. In my anger, I grabbed a weapon and shot her. Guards heard the shots and chased me through the complex. Fast-forward, I'm attending a ceremony with some of my colleagues. It's twilight at a lake village. One of them is my lover. He's flirting with a former ex in the water and other women are trying to join. I raise my arm to get his attention and give him a stern look. the woman next to me slaps my arm away. We fight. A mediator from my group of colleagues drags me away and I have a minor breakdown. I'm knocked from that world and brought to the lifelight direct input center (a stepping stone between my world and the others) where my colleague sits me down and asks what's wrong. I tell him that I'm miserable and angry at Jack, and that I miss my husband with every fiber of my being. My colleague offers himself to me, I tell him that's impossible (our minds are at the input center, but I have no idea where his body is) He hugs me and brings my lover back in. My lover hugs me and we exit lifelight together. I wake up in a shock like waking from a dream and it's freezing outside. Jack wakes with me and asks why it's so cold. I say "it's because we've been spending too much damn time in lifelight." I remember that there was an apocalypse and that everyone we know is dead besides jack and the few lifelight jumpers we run into when we stream. most people are lawless bandits, at least as far as we know.
We live in a shed that we've rigged with lifelight wiring. I grab an axe to go outside and find firewood. We live in a place where trees are sparse and I have to walk far from my shed before I get to a tree. and I'm chopping, I see a person driving through the plains and I run away. I get close to the shack to warn Jack, but they have caught up with me. I find that they are peaceable, then I wake up.